exams kana?

exams coming soon~

do I feel the pressure... hmm... not really.

3 papers only...

EUE, PE, ECO...

Confidence... zero

when 13 June, 20 June, 21 June

bleh... =S

"P" ???

URGH! I've been avoiding him for 10days... and for what?! a "P" waaah...

I was feeling so uneasy about seeing him. fuan desu...

I couldn't understand what I am doing... nor what I am worrying about... guess what... it's homesickness... sigh...

Now~ bleh... I have to rewrite my abstract... that is what determines my "P" in my FYP...

And I don't have to worry about my FYP until next sem... darn... that's the hard part eh!!!!!!!!!

One comment which caught my attention. "Your english isn't very good is it?" URGH! I felt shot by an arrow... Then he asked about what type of school... and URGH! This is what I get by trying to follow someone else abstract... Even Aurora couldn't understand my first sentence... CRAP!! DOoM!! Have my english fallen so low?

:'(

Too much chatting... not enough reading... no wonder my english has been so bad... so malu... LOL

UARGH!!

ARGH!!!!! Frustrated... darn it... FYP!!! RAWR!!!

Looks like yea... NOT FINISH!!! I DON'T KNOW HOW TO JUDGE ANYMORE!!!!!

The wind turbine is giving me problems... why? I HAVE NO IDEA!!! WHAT'S WRONG?! IS IT RIGHT? IS IT WRONG?! I don't know... I have no idea~.... sad....cry....waaahh :'(

sick-idy sick

yea... sick... because.... It was freaking cold on sunday night and I went to eat Chicken Treat. ARgh... I had fever, sorethroat and headache. Ate 1 panadol and thought that it'll be alright. I ended up waking up every 30 minutes to go to the bathroom because I drank water everytime I woke up. Finally I couldn't stand it and stayed up for awhile till 3am.

Before I went to sleep, I checked the medication for the panadol. It wasn't the normal panadol that I always take so I thought that 1 would do! But NO!! It said take 2!! argh!! so I took 2... and could finally get some sleep. Other than my housemates making morning noises... still... I felt better... The sorethroat is still there. I'll go look for some strepsils or something.

Back hurts... old liaw.... =(

Boring part

Sigh~ the boring part of me is always in this blog. The more fun part is always in the other blog.

Here I complain a lot... there also but still less than here.

Hunger... is what I plan to do to get what I want but not what I need. LOL~ By managing how much I eat, I can manage how much I spend and thus save more for what I want. lOL~

Click here for my Hobby Blog. It's also in the Blog Link section.

winter hunger

Hmm~ It's cold. It feels like it's almost winter. I get a temperature around less than 20 degrees. Lowest I've seen was 5 degrees at 4am last Wednesday loL~

I took out my wind breaker already. Nice and warm. Only thing is.. I found something from Japan in one of the pockets! xP

Since it's getting colder, I'm getting more and more hungry. Can't be helped, I need to eat to produce heat. Darn it I miss eating KFC's Hot & Spicy chicken in Mal~ The H&S here can't compare in terms of taste and spice. Lack of spice hahaha!

I still don't really know what happened to my bro. But he is alright now. Back to uni asses n stuff.

Yea, right now is the busiest time in Uni. In fact I was suppose to watch Spiderman 3 with Cruz last Thursday but things came up can we had to push it to next week. Unfortunately I might be too busy next week to go. sad.

FYP~ how? hmm... I have no idea why I need my synchronizer to work under complex harmonics. It's too hard! there isn't a constant phase to lock on to! hmm... If I connect it to the generator, everything is fine. Nope, I didn't see my supervisor today. Scared of him. Probably I should start on that abstract and bring it on Monday to show him or else I'll have no reason to find him. SIGH~~ The thing about trying to finish your FYP early is that he wants to add more stuff. SIGH~~

ass on the line

HO... ya... both of them are on the line... my real ass and my ass...

ass = butt
ass = assignment

ass shit = i'm shitting
ass shit = assignment sheet

loL~

ok... enough with those =P

PE, ESD, FYP... darn u~ loL

bro out of hospital n kicking ass shit... OPS~ loL~

=|

Thanks everyone for your concern~... Dad says that my bro is doing better... Praise the Lord...

I probably won't get a clear idea of what really happened until he gets well. My Dad is there with him and just asking him for information will stress him out even more... so all I can do is wait and pray that my brother gets well soon...

3 days of nothing

Nothing... everything just bombard me in one day that I really don't have the energy to react... and even if I do... I still can't do anything...

No matter what people say about my brother... he is still my brother... even though he is like 'that' he is still my brother... the thought of losing him and that I can't go back immediately to see him... it hurts...

nightmare? dream?

I just woke up from a dream

After receiving the news that my brother is in the hospital. I just felt my energy drained from my body. After talking to my dad on the phone and my mum online... I just couldn't help it... and I tried to go to sleep...

--------Dream? Nightmare?--------
It was dark... cold... I was going somewhere... to my old school...
As I left the last place which had the only source of light... Everything started to become dark... cold... There was the moon and I could still see where I was going. Then... the clouds covered the moon... everything was dark...
It took time for my eyes to adjust itself... I could still see the walkway to the school hall... and then... to a dark corridor... I just had to go through that dark corridor... hoping either my eyes will get used to the darkness or the moon will reappear from behind the clouds... but when I started only a few steps through the corridor... and saw the chain doors in the darkness which closed the stairway... I started to become scared... I walked backwards out of fear... and fell backwards as I missed my footing... only to be caught by someone familiar... it... or should I say she... said... 'It's alright, I'm here with you'... and there is where I woke up... surprised... frightened... disoriented... my mouth was dry and just had to get out of bed to get a drink of water...
--------Dream? Nightmare?--------

I feel so helpless... I feel if only I can be like that person in my dream and tell my brother that he'll be alright because I'm there... If I hadn't come here... I just know that he won't need to go to the hospital... If only... ='(

bro...

=(
sad...
my mood for the whole day has gone...
for some reason... my brother is in the hospital... as of now... I have no idea what actually happened... something about one of his lungs collapsed... =(

Luckily dad is there...sigh...I feel so helpless being here...WHY?? WHY DID THIS HAPPEN??!

='(

So tonight... don't...please don't bother me...

FiYrPro

Ho...no lah! Why do people think that I have already finished my FiYrPro??? Not yet... I said almost finish... said it too soon... lOL... perhaps it's something like Aurora's progress... at first thought that 70% complete... then... OPS! got BUG!! OR... Kelvin asked me to add this and that!! soo~ to say that it is finish is completely untrue...

Sigh... no progress in my FYP as of yet... came back at 8.30pm last night cold... hungry and headache... sooo... what to do? Relax... a while... then had to do house chores~~~ rawr... last night didn't get sleep till late... as in really late... and this morning woke up at 10.30am... then sleep again... AND STILL!!! NO PACKAGE!!! grumble grumble grumble... If I do not get it by tomorrow I'll have to go to the mailing services personally... darn them! they are 4days LATE!!

return to the past~ with rena~ =)

(Source: www.yunagi-sakura.jp )

it just came back to me~ yes... Rena Tanaka...lOL~
guess what she's been up to this year! loL~... the funniest CM I've seen! loL~

http://www.goldcrest.co.jp/webcm/index.html

and she's starring in another new movie this year! Yunagi no Macchi, Sakura no Kuni... If my translation is correct, it's City of Yunagi, Sakura Kingdom. lOL~

From what I gather, it a story after the nuke dropped in Japan... the 2 girls went back to find something from the past... probably reminising about their parents during that time...

http://www.yunagi-sakura.jp/

The song they put in the official website reminds me of FFX or something... haha... The movie premier is 28/7... iina~~

btw... tempted to buy her photobook since now I have the opportunity... but darn... the photobook of her starring in the movie Drug Store Girl is out of stock in amazon japan... sad... I probably won't be able to find it anywhere else other than ebay or something... sad... too bad then... lOL~

PI??

PI~! No... not pie... not 3.142... no... it's a Proportional Integrator... ask me what it is... It uses and integrator to increase the speed of detecting changes in electrical signals and uses a gain to control the stability. Again... what is PI? even with that I have no idea...

If you increase the integrator to a large and positive value you get higher frequncy response and low damping ratio... small and positive you get the exact opposite. Gain... you increase the gain until you see it oscillates...HMMM... with this... I should be able to tune the PI.. BUT WHAT THE HELL!!

My FYP... ahh~ I spent 2 days trying to tune the PI... and today after meeting Kelvin... he told me NO! Please do this properly...

darn it... it's not like I've not been trying... I did manage to tune it to a rage of 50Hz to 100Hz... BUT!!! OMG... I got the concept of the low pass filter wrong... NUOOO!!! 2 days wasted.... DARN!!

anyway.... after the meeting with Kelvin... guess what... he handed me a leaflet asking me to write a paper! PAPER!! A professional paper which will allow me to show off... hmm... okay... SO?! I wasn't really interested in publishing a paper anyway... but it won't be bad if I did... crap... there is only 2 weeks left in the semester and I really have to finish my FYP!!! omg~~~~ crap!!! NUOOO!!! ARGH!!!

besides FYP... still... there is PE... ESD... EUE... ECON.... NUOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

LOL~

headache

puff puff puff... urgh... sick... headache... lack of sleep... = blur-ness... pardon the english...LOL

Argh, it's the end of week 9 and next week I am suppose to be able to finish my Final Year Project. Yay and Boo at the same time. Yay because I'm almost done but Boo because I still haven't done what I'm suppose to do. Darn...

Yes, lack of sleep... why? Because I stayed up late to watch anime (Witch Hunter Robin). The soundtrack reminds me of Chain. Still only half way through the story and I have already downloaded new animes which I haven't had time to review them. Before I knew it, I have already downloaded 15Gb. This is what happens when I get restricted for 4 months.

And oh yeah~ I'm not sure if I had mentioned it before but my hostel here had sort of an unrestricted internet going on. It was planned even before I arrived in Aus. Guess wad... from April to May... from May to June. Amazing... Luckily I applied for my own line than waiting until next semester.

I should be getting back to my Final Year Project (FYP or FiYrPro) loL~ when you pronounce FiYrPro doesn't it sound like FirePro? LOL~~Just blah-ing~ that's all from me for now. Try out all the new links, archive and RSS. Click on some ads too hahaha.

Remodel?

Hmm~~ this is what I get for changing my Frontpage from XP to 2003... They don't match and I am forced to use blogger's new template style... still ok...but it actually prevents you from actually customizing the full body layout... I dare not disturb the original template because there was too little code on it... probably they stored it some where or I'm not good at editing webpages. haha

So here it is... new blog...

finally

I finally have my internet.... since...erm...tuesday! hahaha.... Just felt like blogging again...

many things happen... just too many for me to recall it in detail...but first... yes... I have to modify my blog again... it's just too old and it needs a brand new start...

even my hobby blog! omg~ I've been slacking in my blogging... haha... I haven't had time to even see other people's blogs at all...probably all of you think this blog is dead... darn... so....a new 1 will be coming!! hopefully by end of this week... nah... probably will take longer than that...

about life in aus...

dad has been asking me to find a job here... hmm... i'm just not there yet. I don't feel that secure working here that... just that... It'll probably stop me from ever reaching where I want to go next time... yes, no other place than... NIPPON!

haha....