~So so~

~Life is so so~

neither bad nor good... juz.. so so.. ^_-

So what do you do to make your life not just so so?? hmm.. try to do new things? imagine stuff?? hobbies?? do paloi stuff? hehe..

oh yeah... before i forget.. today is cruz's birthday!! happy birthday man... you are officially 20 years old.. according to malaysia timeline.. lol.. perhaps in US you are still err.. 11 hours behind.. lol.. 11 hours younger.. haha..

'I'm still keeping my sights open.. if u noe wad i mean.. perhaps because of all the work, test and stress, i dont feel any spark.. or perhaps.. 2 years of boredom took up all the space.. hmm.. so.. i'll be looking around.. lolz'

~on to other stuffs~

lets make life more interesting... don't talk about work.. problems.. stress..

~my idea of a romantic scene or moment~which can be implied to both he/she, i'll be using she/her since i'm a guy~and this is just good fun~ fiction unless can be proven otherwise.. haha~endings are up to you~

(1) so.. you are in the library, doing your studies by yourself.. you feel tired and it's cold because the air-con temp was set too low.. she still has class so you start think about her.. you look at your watch.. another 30 mins to go, so you decide to rest awhile laying your head on the table.. as you started to close your eyes.. someone sneaks behind you and gives you a warm hug.. at first you will be a little surprised.. but then you can smell her hair and immediately you recognize that it is her......

(2) so.. you are on a picnic (LOL) with a bunch of your classmates, because the groupings were pre-arranged, she's with her friends and you are with yours.. treasure hunting was one of the activities set and there was a bit of competition among groups.. towards the end of the hunt, the last clue led you to meet with her.. and the you are the last two groups to finish the game.. your teammates let you two to finish the race.. you guys like to compete, so this is one of those things you do.. in the end, you lost the race.. haha.. well, at least she's happy right? it's the end of the day, time to go back.. she's all pooped and whines of being too tired to walk.. so what do you do? you tell her, "come on, i'll give you a piggy-back ride".. she jumps on you.. and you are surprised that she was that light (heavy? hoho).. exhausted, she whispers in your ears, "you let me win, didn't you..", you can only smile and carry her back......

(3) The classic raining day event. It was a fine day to go out on the beach, the whether forecasted raining later that day but you ignore it anyway since it was the only time you can spend with her on that day. After spending an hour or two on the beach, clouds blown from the sea started to roll in.. a heavy down pour was expected but both of you couldnt escape it.. you packed as much things as you can and both ran to the nearest 7-11.. only to find out that they just ran out of umbrellas.. she gets annoyed and says "i told you it was going to rain"..your car was a little further off but you don't wanna leave her.. shivering, you took out the damped towel from your bag and covered her.. bought some hot cocca and sat at the porch, waiting for the rain to lift.. still feeling cold, you cuddle up together and drank the hot cocca.. "Sorry.." is all you can say.. but she doesnt say a word.. the rain seemed to have drown all your words.. she just hugs you more closely.. saying "it's cold..".. Both of you stayed there until the rain finally lifts......

ok.. i'm out of ideas now.. maybe next time.. i don't really know what do girls think.. so this was kinda like one sided.. soo?? the girl has so little to say.. lol... in (3) i wasnt sure whether it ended in a romantic way.. or a disaster.. lolz.. there are two sides.. ur side and her side.. so up to you to end it.. and as you can see.. it's getting longer and longer.. lolz.. all for the fun of it.. i still have some more ideas.. though vague.. i think i'll let you in on it when i have more free time... or feel like it~.. lolz..

SS quiz in 10 hours.. lolz..

~shoot me~

Someone pls shoot me.. argh~

I feel like the manga or anime being shot with arrows.. (will draw 1 when i have time..lol)

urgh~ saw her today.. she didnt seem to have much effect.. and i didnt show much either.. as in.. duh~~ nth ever happened.. (-_-)... lolz...

bad timing lah.. it's the end of the semester already.. no time anymore for these stuff.. n i dont think that i am as sweet as i used to be.. hmm...

so what now?? now?? now have to finish up all the assignments i have been saving up the whole semester.. time to start cracking.. hopefully i'll get it through this sem with less than a broken leg.. lolz...

back to work?? i guess.. tomorrow will have ES test.. have 2 pass up ES lab.. MC logbook.. and study for thursday's SS test.. urgh~~.. lots huh?? maybe others have more.. hehe..

exams start on da 14 of nov.. ends on da 18..

oii.. now a bit noisy in campus.. ppl play wierd music.. ok ok.. enuf.. afterwards no time to study..

2 to 3 worlds?

i'm in many different worlds...

1) the virtual reality world

2) anime world

3) reality

In (1) i show what i am really feeling.. a little spoilt, scared, crazy, pervy, and i write more than i speak

In (2) i just watch them.. lolz

In (3) i kinda lz, lost, and most of the time, neglect my insides and try to do everything i can to feel comfortable at where i am and what i do...

so in my blog, i may be shouting out like crazy, saying all that "i wanna die stuff" but in reality i dont show it.. more like.. my usual quiet self.. haha.. i guess, this is what a blog is for rite?? lolz.. maybe for me~

i found a good site to host files 4shared.com

you can upload up 2 10Mb, and the download speed is better than rapidshare.com

maybe next time i'll want 2 put a download link in my blog... next time as in when i am back in kch..

i just wanna let everyone know that i'm fine.. there are some issues which i need to figure out myself.. but i just wanna speak (write) out my mind.. thx for all da encouragements.. haha... i'm like a kid asking for attention.. =P

i'm trying out the 4shared.com now.. here is the link for an mp3 i want.. the password is 'liquidblader' without the quotes.. i zipped it so that you people in campus can download it too

http://www.4shared.com/file/386088/682a125/Shuffle_On_the_Stage_-_Intro.html

~i wanna be?~

=(... what do i really want to be... i've been thinking a lot about that... is engineering really my field? why did i choose this course anyway? -_- ... i've never really thought about what i wanted to be until i came to 1st year... now... there is no turning back... is there?? argh!!! i just wish i can just leave everything behind and turn tail and just go out into the world.. leave everything... leave everyone and start anew.. =(

but i have to stick it up to the end rite? or else i'll be disappointing everyone.. including myself.. and just escaping responsibilities.. i'm always trying to convince myself.. "Once i've finished this course, i can do what i want".. issit true?? or "i can take another course after i've finished this".. but ya noe... i'm kinda tired, sien, lame, baka!! iiisshhh!!!!! so sien of studying already... i'm trying to look for a way out!! HELP!!!! ARGH!!!!! =(

So what now? i don't know.. another 2 years and i'll be done.. tat is.. IF i can get myself together to finish it.. it isnt nice and comforting to try to do something that you don't like.. hmm.. kinda like working rite??

There's some of my friends who are going for industrial training this summer break.. well.. ok~ so what do i noe about being an electrical engineer in practical? zip.. nth.. nada.. a big O... so if i do go for training.. i'll be like a noob.. a tourist down the sub station.. taking pictures, and notes of things that i'va yet to comprehend~.. duuhh~~ Last time, i made the reason why i chose EE was because i have a little knowledge in EE because of my father, and there was a scholarship sponsored by SESCo.. well.. it had better pay than being an artist or english teacher right?? i feel like reconsidering all my previous decisions.. but i cant.. wont it be a big surprise to everyone, if i just packed up and disappeared to no where? a long long vacation to face the harsh realities of the world.. perhaps then, i would be able to see the light more clearly... DAMN!! a dream which can never come true..

-_-.... lame lame lame!!! GGRRHHH!!!! I wanna shot out loud!! i want to go to the beach and release all that negativity~~ that bad aura... u can see me sleeping these past few days.. not wanting to do anything... soo sien of life that you can't even imagine... and dont u ppl say.. "u need 2 get urself a girl~".. tat has nth to do wif this... ish~!!! bloody hell!!!!

BAM!! BAM!! BAM!! being urself is just soooo unacceptable in society... i feel like i'm gonna burst anytime...DAMN IT!!

~schoolmate~

lolz.. guess wad~~... i found out that she was a schoolmate!! different class but same year.. hmm.. gomen gomen.. if i didnt recognize~.. aii..

hmm.. played a little sms with her.. found out a couple of other things too.. oh well.. not much for today's entry anyway~.. i'll just keep it as friends for now until i can get to know her better.. will meet her this afternoon for class..

hmm~~ aurora became interested in going to the prom pulak.. after i tired so much to make him change his mind.. only today someone mentioned it was a buffet style dinner.. lolz.. next time i should try that.. hohoho..

a bit hungry now... off to cooking i guess..

~msg~

i just got a msg from 'her' saying that she wont go this saturday~~...

oh well.. at least she didn't kept me waiting long right?.. n this solves some of my problems rite?

=P

so so~~ it's ok ler~~ though things didnt actually worked out~ at least i did ask her out.. got to know her a little.. (^_^)

so maybe move on from here?? hmm~~ haha.. we'll see~..

and there is always next year's prom~

=_=

i don't really believe that there is such a thing as a bad day~.. maybe unfavourable ones yes... bad?? no.. God gives us life everyday.. so there must be something good about it~

actually i left out a couple of unfavourable stuff from my blog yesterday.. it's not what i want the public to know.. but what happened is exactly what is written.. no plus, no exagerations.. and it is from my point of view.. so it may conflict with others..

so so... what now? tickets are flying away by the day.. zh said not much left cause more were sold to outside people.. n the table arrangements are really not organized.. more tickets were sold to outsiders.. i mean.. it is curtin's prom night rite?? just because they can earn more money by selling to outsiders doesn't mean that it has to turn into a miri prom right?? (>_<)# hmm.. i wonder what are the student council doing?? sigh~~

oh well.. i must say.. even though i've said that i'll still even though the girl doesn't.. it seems that things are unfavourable to me at this time.. there should be extra tickets lying around.. but tat doesn't interest me that much.. i mean.. now only a few of my friends could go too.. or would like to go.. i don't blame them.. i feel the same way~~

so~~... the only thing that could change my mind about going is.. (1) the girl changed her mind and decides to go with me.. (2) a couple more seats are available and more of my friends can join in.. (3) provided i can still find tickets.. well, if (1) happens.. of course i'll try my best to get tickets..

i kinda knew things will go out of way ~~ anyway, for those who already have tickets.. enjoy ur time there.. don't forget to take pictures & tell stories about it.. lolz.. i wanna hear.. who noes.. maybe things like last prom night 'could' happen again.. haha..

just got this, this morning.. so just maybe~~ there is a little more chance.. so so?? just now just hung up with andy~~ another seat gone.. i wasnt fast enuf to get the last seat.. oh well~~.. (o*_*o) <--- pouting~

p/s: i would like to thank everyone who made the time to read my blog entires and kept me company.. it was fun!! haha.. lots of comments and excitement.. blogging won't be as fun without ppl's views.. sorry if i was a bit(a lot?) pushy in asking u to read my entries..honto ni gomennasai!! hmm.. pls cont to visit my blog when u r free.. yoroshiku onegai shimasu!! who noes.. miracles do happen right?? (^_^)

pending mode kah??

For the play boys.. there's nth but ez smooth talk huh??

conditions and time matter... n today's condition was blur n i had only 10 mins~~

i'd rather be an octopus~~~~

ok ok... she went into the class with her friend fiona, after they had sat down, i went up to her and introduced myself.. then i asked her for her name.. hmm.. maybe i'll post her name out next time.. or if u ask me in msn.. i then told her about the prom.. apparently she didn't know about it.. and she seemed a bit interested.. she asked her friend if she were going.. fio said she wasn't so she said that she wasn't going oso.. i then said nvm.. and passed her my name and number, telling her that if she changed her mind, call me.. she said thx.. and tat's tat.. hmm.. oh yeah~~ i over heard fio asking her to go out anyway.. but i didn't know if she wanted to too.. hmm.. this was one of the things that i did not expect.. lolz.. if her friend didnt go, most probably she wont go too huh?? yea.. especially with someone that you dont know too well.. anyway.. i made 'a foot step'.. not a step ok~~.. so so.. had 2 hours of class there.. heard a bit of 'go laa' here and there.. lolz.. hmm.. if she does go out with me.. then good loh huh??

I just realized that tomorrow morning, i'll be able to see her again because there is a lab.. so see how lah.. i think i'll tell her to inform me if she is going before thursday.. because i need to get 'things' ready.. things like the tickets, the clothes, ppl going, those things.. and if she does go out with me, i'll have to go and prepare something sweet so that she'll remember the night.. hey~~ don't look at me like tat~~ i like to give ppl stuff.. nice stuff..

oh yeah.. her personality reminded me of how shy and cute pitiput was~~ lolz.. maybe if she's abit more daring, then she'll go out with me.. =P

~~manga version~~

ネコ = neko = cat (girl(s))
キツネ = kitsune = fox (me)
タコ = tako = octopus (me)

here is what roughly happened...

this is wad happens if i was an octopus...

lolz...

oh yea.. i even went to cut my hair this morning!! lolz~

doing things this paloi makes me feel all nostalgic~~

(O_O) can't sleep

i've been awake since 12am... I can't sleep now... been trying to sleep for the past 3 hours!!

ok... I've just thought of something... yes... i'm a noob ok? I've never asked a girl out in my life!!

in the event that she is unsure that she'll go... i was thinking of giving her my phone number to let me know if she changes her mind... the thing is.. do i ask for her number??

of course in the event that she agrees to be my partner, then i'll ask for her number... but what about the situation on top?? hmm...

I could keep on waiting... and waiting... and waiting...

or i could get her number... and call her to confirm if she is goin.. after a few days... though plans have to be reorganized...

hmm... well... if i got rejected... then i wont have to think much about it huh?? lolz...

~~~~~ hours later....~~~~~

oh yea! for all you gundam fans!! especially shaggy...lolz.. got freedom gundam and impulse gundam with extra finish out!! but not here in toys world laa... go check in dalong.net

I just want to post the picture of freedom here... it looks nice!! i want it!! if i can find it i think i'll buy it... dun care about strike freedom 1st... lolz

nite hours~

sigh~

(-<-) --> i'd rather be an octopus

last nite really was nuts~~

now that i'm cooled down... hmm... A--> I huh??

after saying that i'll go, that i'll ask da girl out, after being high n excited...

hmm~~ i can't go back on my words rite?? aiiiiiiiiii~~~~

be a man~~ and go for it?? sigh~

from 0 --> 100

or 0 --> -100

(-<-)

man~~... i don't expect much from da prom, in term of building a relationship... it's all too sudden and well... not my pace~~ well... if anything do develops well... then hmm~~... maybe it's ok?? though... argh~~... (low mode~~)

どしお！！どしお！！だれか！！たすけて！！

(In hiragana pronounciation)

...---...

O.o

ARGH!!!!!!!!!

(waving~~)

sigh~~(no one sees)

oh yea~~ i didnt explain da real deal~~... I know totally nth bout da girl... didnt thought of asking her out in the 1st place... only see her twice a week in class... was in a dont care state... prom is next saturday... have to ask her on monday!!... tickets hav to be bought on monday!! or tuesday~~... anything goes wrong?? i'll still go anyway~~... no clothes to wear for da prom... in a dying state now... panic state!! argh!! i'm doom!!! argh!!!!

that's why i'd rather be an octopus... (-<-)

the decision~

Ok... I got my car back today... no more jerking, ticking sounds and it's really nice to drive again~~... cost RM252.64.. urgh~~

i guess i have made the decision to go to the prom afterall... it'll be fun... i keep telling myself that... sigh~~

now... all i need is a partner for the prom... easier said than done...ish~

i had my eyes on this girl for a while but i never really thought of making a move until this prom thing popped out... she came out of the blue this semester when all hope was gone (not so many girls in eng.).. and she's not bad looking to boot~~

Allright... here's the deal... the prom is next saturday nite.. tickets just went on sell today.. i have one chance to ask her out (actually 2).. after class, i'll immediately go to her and ask her to the prom... but... what to say?? i'll intro myself... aske her name... and??? this is where u readers come in handy.. although the final decision is up to me..

A. Are you free this Saturday?... Would you like to go to the prom with me?...

B. There's the prom this Saturday, would you mind being my partner?

C. This Saturday is prom night, do you have a partner yet?

D. Are you going to the prom night this Saturday?

E. Would you be my partner for this Saturday's prom night?

F. It's prom night this Saturday, are you going?

G. I'm looking for a partner for this Saturday's prom night. Would you be her?

H. I've always had my eyes on you. Would you mind being my partner for this Saturday's prom night?

I. (Any suggestions that you can provide...??)

Hmm... put ur answers in the tagboard... If it is offline for some reason, put it in the comments... Thanks to everyone who is reading... =P

Of course, I'll think of something to say after the first response... bad or good... I'll think about it later... 1st things 1st... the first impression~~~

prom nite~~

hmm... prom night is coming soon~~

how arr?? hmm... actually it doesn't seem like a big deal...

it may be fun... or dull...

may be guys without dates (like me~~) will hug da wall...

or may be guys with camera will be flying around (like zhen hai with my camera)... lolz...

who noes... may be there'll be girls like that too!! LOL!!

the food might suck~~~

the drinks... exp~~

there might be dancing (small floor)...

there might even be a mr. prom & miss prom... lolz

there'll surely be couples...

there might be beauty queens...

there'll surely be beuty freaks...

some might even be 'nengless' (HOHO)

with a whole bunch of stuffing!!

i might get a girl to go~~ if she wans to~~ (O.o)

but i might not have the guts (no usus to share...lolz)

so who knows~~

loud music around~~

people crapping here and there~~

drunks sleeping at the back (like mic last time)

or even dancing wild moves .. =P

money will be flying

if i'm really going...

but it'll be great fun with friends...

and even better if with a girl... (issit?? hmm...)

perhaps maybe with friends.. it'll go crazier...

with girls.. it'll go more intimate... or end up in disaster~~

lolz...

prom is next saturday~ i heard... havent got a ticket... not even a sponsored~~

so lets see... if i can get 1... or maybe get invited by 'someone'... hopefully a girl..=P..hehe...

level 48 nia~

LOLz... 2 hours of gameplay and only added 2 levels... hard to find high exp and money monsters now... have to go deeper into the valley or caves... oh yeah... changed armor and weapons to C grade... need to be level 50 or 51 to change to B grade~

Tomorrow have quiz... urgh~~

2 Megapixels!!

CLICK THE IMAGE TO SEE THE IMAGE!!

Hehehe... Went testing around with my camera today~ Lolz... It's not bad~~ quite good for a camera phone~~... now I have 2 cameras!! =P

I just activated my gprs just now... only at 9.30 then it'll be activated for use~~ sigh~~ why so slow~~

I also activated my mms oso... tried to send to ppl but haven received yet... have to wait for the gprs to activate?? hmm~~ settings have been downloaded to my phone already... so I guess I just have to wait

urgh~~ a pic of me~~ lolz

K750i!!!!!!!!!!

I decided to buy the phone now instead of buying it when I go to KL next year... It's like 3 months away!! I got it for RM1480+RM20 for screen protector... lolz~~owe ppl money...lolz...

Today was soo damn tiring~~ All the ATM machines seem to run out of money or out or order!! I had to go to 5 atm outlets before I manage to find 1 which could make transactions~~...duhhH~~~

I had 2 borrow 500 from aurora coz my limit perday is 1k... Still trying to master da phone~~ got a little trouble here and there with the USB cable~~ the camera is great!! not to mention the mp3 player too!! yes!! i dont have to change my phone for another 3 years~~ lolz~~

Lineage arr... a bit lz to play liaw... now stuck at level 45... i think... i havent logged in today~~... changed my armor and weapons 2 C grade already... looks... different~~ haha

tomorrow is class again~~ sigh~~ a bit sien with that~~ yepz.. got work to do~~ lab this week... quiz on thursday... lab report on friday~~... urgh~~~~

Sleepy now~~ I'll take a little nap before dinner~~ nitez~~