for money, religion, age or LOVE?

yup! John has officially gone bonkers~ burden by the thoughts that he wouldn't normally have if he were in miri~

So what's gotten me so fired up? bonkers? confused? ahh~ the answer is simple. What always causes a man's heart to go in a state of panic and confusion? at the moment i admit, it's just a phase i have to get thru and get it out of my system before i can actually think straight.

Okay~ I don't have much experience with girls, and most of the time girls think of me as no threat to actually 'court' (mind the quotes) them. So~ I become the guy who everyone uses... well, that my experience from hanging around them most of the time. If anything else, girls whom i don't know, i'll probably keep my distance, just acknowledging when necessary~

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I've always been thinking about the title of this blog. Money... the fact is that money plays a big part in this real world. For me, I feel less confident when the girl I'm aimming for is actually richer than me. This with the idea that my family is not as rich compared to hers. And most of the time, those people are much smarter and well... have better expectation. People expect a princess to marry a prince and not a princess with a peasant.

Religion- Why religion? I must confess that I'm not a very good Christian. I'm not as excited as praising God as much as Cruz but I do have faith in God. I don't wear a cross, neither do I go to church as often as I should especially when I'm by myself in Miri. Confession is something I'm not very comfortable with but if I have the chance, I will (how long has it been~). I'm a RC and naturally, to make life simplier I'd chose another RC. BUT that makes things harder! Should I be bounded to only chose RC? I feel like I shouldn't... but...

Age - I'm not that particular about age but not everyone is ready to accept a younger or older person. My condition has always been someone no older or younger than 5 years... naturally right?! But I really wonder what do older women think about having younger men?... a bit troubled with this because yea, she's older than me by a bit nia la~

For love eh? if everything were as idealistic as it can be~ love would have solved everything in the world! But reality is harsh and there are lots of boundaries... the 3 I've mentioned are some of mine... I'd love 2 write all my thoughts on9 but it's unapproriate... these are better left on private messages...

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So? How's work? Ahh~ I feel as if I should stay at the substation rite now. It's the last day for me to be attached to the PCI department and from next week.

Today is the commissioning of the Airport substation and I went with my father because they think that i'd be boring for me to stay there and watch them do their work. Plus... it's like they are baby sitting me. Everyone was there, Mr. Yeo, Michelle, Lemond, Antony, Yazid, Mr. Lau, Fam, and one of my dad's collegue.

Went around the sub, learned bout the workings with my dad while most of them were doing the relay testings. Actually I wanted to know more about relay testing but I guess I can follow it up next week when I'm 'bored'.

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btw guys~just for your convinience, i sort of made small fonts coz those r my opinions which can be ignored~ yea... if u wanna noe more then read more loh~...